Creamy chocolate? Really?

I know I know its been 2 weeks? I don't even know, but now its October and I'm working on week 4 of my health program. I have lost 15 pounds so far and that's not counting the 2 pounds I lost since Monday. Kelly, my drill Sergeant (kind trainer) doesn't like when I weigh myself more than just once a week, so that's why I didn't just come out and say cough 17 lbs cough... haha opps. Anyway, the program has gotten easier and harder. Carrots still take me an hour to eat, and I'm still really full BUT this week I switched to protein shakes for my first and last meal. which means that the only meal I have to suffer through is the one with the carrots, and these shakes are OK, I mean they aren't like Doug's shakes where there is 8oz of ice cream, along with chocolate syrup, malt, and milk, but the label does say creamy chocolate so that is a plus! HOWEVER, don't be fooled, I can't believe how deceiving a "chocolaty" shake could be... OK these things look like milk chocolaty creamy delicious shake, and by golly (that's for you Vanessa) they even smell like chocolate goodness, and when I first went to try it I was convinced it would taste like chocolate ice cream in the liquid form..... ITS NOT TRUE! ... they aren't something I would take over a real chocolate shake or even a glass of chocolate milk or even a chocolate chip cookie BUT it is quick, easy and it doesn't taste half bad. I just don't want you to get the idea that now all the sudden its easy cuz I am having chocolate shakes everyday... mm no.

But workouts have gotten harder, you should see me in my basement blasting my music, watching my picture slide show on my computer, sweating profusely and yelling at myself to finish... its quite humorous.

-----yes I do realize I divide a lot of my thoughts by ....... a bunch of periods in a row, that's just how I talk so get use to it---------

accomplishments

1. 15lbs wink wink in 3 weeks

2. Alcohol free for 4 weeks

3. smoke free for 1 1/2 weeks

4. Bad but yummy free haha for 3 1/2 weeks

5. Mom free for 4 weeks ..hahahahahahah I just thought of that

6. revamped my resume

7. Started labor for your neighbor.. and is so far pretty successful

8. Putting together a package for the Poverty simulation

so I'd say I'm doing pretty well, sure I have my days, we all do, but things are looking up and with a mug of dunkin donuts coffee in my hand.. everything is just that much better.

So I have been having these weird dreams lately.. probably because I am reading this book where this guys has dreams and can't tell which is reality and which is a dream but ultimately they both are realities (Circle Trilogy- Ted dekker) ... but in this book, and I'm not making this up the portal from one reality and to another is when he falls asleep in one he wakes up in the other.. anyway so that's how my dreams are ... for some reason I will have a nightmare or even a dream I don't really like and in my dream I will find someplace to go to sleep because I know that if I go to sleep I will wake up .. like really wake up in real life and it also works in a good way if I really like my dream, I try to avoid going to sleep in my dream because I know I'll wake up... and then I have these really bad nightmares where no the dream itself isn't bad but every time I try to go to sleep in my dream to wake up, I just wake up in the same dream and then It like torture because I can't wake myself up from my dream in my dream... If you didn't understand this paragraph just forget about it, it really doesn't matter, and I would understand.

I think I figured out why Hank is mentally ill, I mean he is a 7 year old dog which makes him about 49 in human age, and if you know anything about English mastiffs you would know that they shake their head a lot to get the slobber off their mouth... ya know to decorate our walls couches and clothing with it, anyway I think 7 years of shaking that massive head with his big floppy years has really affected his brain functions.. He has got to have lost a few million brain cells ... poor old guy... or maybe when I opened my car door and didn't calculate distance very well and whacked him in the face has something to do with it ...

Yeah distance calculations are not my forte one time I was backing out of my driveway to my house at school and didn't compensate for my side mirrors, and took the whole mirror out with a tree... maybe I should work on that

anyway 2 and a half more weeks and I will be halfway there!!! I'll drink to that! ... I know I know ... shakes and water...